The Final Countdown

I woke up with this song from Europe in my head. After I pushed through the images of Gob from Arrested Development coming out for his "illusion show" (read magic tricks), I thought about how many Sundays I will have left of waking up early because Heath is moving inside me. There are 7 weeks remaining until our due date of June 6th. It's hard to know of course when his actual birthday will be, but getting into single digits here is pretty exciting, and a little nerve-inducing too.

The physical preparations are getting checked off weekly. The car seat, crib and bedding are all here and mostly ready. I cleared out space for a little closet organizer in the second bedroom so Heath has a spot his very own for all those tiny onesies. He has plenty of blankets thanks to his Oma and stuffed animals thanks to the TX Henks. We have showers coming up at the end of the month with work and church friends that will hopefully fill out his cloth diaper stash.

The physical motions of preparing are all steps in getting closer for emotional and mental preparedness I think. The longer I am pregnant the more I appreciate God's design of a 40 week gestation period. Unlike engagement where we were mentally and emotionally ready at proposal but needed time to make physical arrangements for a wedding event, pregnancy has been the opposite experience for me. I've also come to accept that one will never feel fully prepared or ready to be a parent. We've been attending birthing classes and I'm feeling more confident in labor and delivery- but after that is bam! parenthood. And what classes do you go to for that? Sure there are books and people have plenty of advice to offer. Pregnancy has been a deeply spiritual experience for me on my journey with God and I am leaning more into that as the final countdown approaches. I think it is less about my personal preparedness and more about my willingness to trust in God's provisions. I think our marriage continues to be a lesson in learning how to love unselfishly and a relationship where we sharpen one another in becoming a closer reflection of the image we were designed in. Those things give me confidence that God is still at work and will continue to be when Heath joins us on the outside.